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November 30, 2005

sanctuary

Filed under: kagagallery — ABRAXAS @ 5:52 am


The Muti Gallery is the latest edition to 44 Stanley Avenue’s already thriving art hub. Owned and curated by Brazilian film director, Guto Bussab, the space will open with an exhibition entitled SANCTUARY, by leading South African artist, author and film-maker, Aryan Kaganof.  

“SANCTUARY is a tribute the French philosopher Jaques Derrida, who  died in October this year,’ explains Kaganof. “Derrida was famous for his concept of deconstructionism. SANCTUARY takes its cue from The Truth In Painting, a book of Derrida’s about the frame of art and the art of framing. It asks the question, where does the work of art end and the frame begin?”

For SANCTUARY, Kaganof has integrated the walls of the gallery into the work by painstakingly writing on them. Twelve digitally printed canvases, which were allowed to fade over the course of 5 years and were then painted over with oil paint, constitute the more conventional
 ‘hanging’ other aspect of the work. A dialogue between gallery walls and ‘work’ is then established to challenge conventional boundaries.

Bussab says of his choice to launch The Muti Gallery with Kaganof’s show: ‘Kaganof’s uncompromising approach and fierce independence make him the perfect artist to represent the gallery’s vision.’ The gallery will showcase international and local contemporary artists in monthly exhibitions.  

November 29, 2005

tokyo elegy

Filed under: 1999 - shabondama elegy (tokyo elegy) — ABRAXAS @ 6:52 am

November 28, 2005

Het Blondje

Filed under: dick tuinder, kagastories — ABRAXAS @ 7:44 pm

translated into the Dutch by Dick Tuinder

Het Blondje

Ik zat tegenover de SaSas bar haar levensverhaal te schrijven toen het Blondje op me af kwam lopen.

“Wat ben je aan het schrijven?”

“Jouw levensverhaal.”

“Hoe loopt het af?”

“Zoals het begon, tragikomisch.”

“Klinkt bekend, heb ik nog enige inspraak in de afloop?”

“Ga zitten, geef me iets te drinken en we zoeken het uit.”

Enige tijd later, toen we naakt waren, vroeg ze me verlegen of ik echt om haar gaf of dat het enkel de sex was.

“Haal de dingen niet door elkaar liefje, ik geef echt om je sex.”

Toen deed ze haar magische act, sloeg haar enkels achter haar oren en liet die kleine dingen dingen zeggen tegen mij.
Na afloop rookten we beiden Blackstone Cherries en ik bewoog mijn hand door haar lange blonde haar. Lang duurde het niet. Maar iets was het wel.

Jaren later botsten we tegen elkaar op in de Killarney Mall. Ze zag er nog steeds goed uit. We dronken koffie bij Alfredo’s. Haar ogen stonden iets treuriger en het haar was minder lang.

We spraken over onbelangrijke dingen. Maar het scheen dat zij veel meer over mij wist, dan ik over haar.

“Jij bent geen feestnummer.”

Wat kon ik daarop zeggen? De jaren hadden hun tol geeist. Ik liep mee naar haar Mazda. Voor de geopende deur staand keken we hoe een typische Joburg onweersbui zich samenpakte en opmaakte de stad te geselen. Ze draaide zich naar me om, haar ogen iets bollend van kennis, en ik werd geraakt door wat ze zei:

“Het grootse deel van mijn leven is gevuld met wachten op iets. Maar als dat iets dan dreigt te gebeuren, ren ik weg. Dat is mij levensverhaal.”

Het was niet het verhaal dat ik had geschreven. Mijn verhaal ging anders. Ze reed weg in de richting van de steeds dreigender storm en ik stond nog lang op de stoep bij de Killarny Mall terwijl ik me afvroeg of een man ooit werkelijk een vrouw zou kunnen begrijpen. Of zichzelf.

Ik nam een omweg naar huis via Jan Smuts en William Nicol, maakte een Gin-Tonic, stak een goedkope sigaar op en keek naar een zonsondergang achter een grodijn van regen op de klanken van Serge Gainsbourg. Ik verstond geen Frans en ik verstond geen vrouwen. Ik probeerde J.M. Coetzee te lezen, maar hij deprimeerde me en maakte dat ik me onwerkelijk voelde. De zon ging uit en ik had de puf niet om de lichten aan te doen.

Ik dacht over alle blondjes met wie ik ooit een nacht had doorgebracht. Het was lastig te geloven dat mijn leven bijna afgelopen was. Iets in me schreeuwde dat het nauwelijks nog begonnen was. Ik bladerde door de stapel op mijn bureau, vond een oud adresboekje, zat, naar wat een lange tijd leek, naar de pagina’s te staren. De Gin-Tonic moet zichzelf opgedronken hebben, Serge had niets meer om over te zingen. Ik had niet genoeg in de fles om haar te bellen.

Ik kon me haar naam niet meer herinneren.

Aryan Kaganof

November 27, 2005

michael blake untitled

Filed under: michael blake, kaganof short films — ABRAXAS @ 7:26 am


MICHAEL BLAKE UNTITLED
a portrait by Aryan Kaganof
South Africa, 2005, 12min, DVcam

A portrait of an untitled composition by South Africa’s foremost contemporary composer, Michael Blake. The portrait follows pianist Jill Richards and clarinettist Robert Pickup as they rehearse the fiendishly difficult composition and ends after the premiere performance of a work that Black describes as “my most minimalist work. It is largely concerned with surface and very little with traditional formal structures; its finely graded variations of nuance and colour belie the virtuosity required of both performers. Aryan Kaganof’s notion of the cinematic frame as being 6-sided - the fours sides of the image plus the beginning and end of the shot in time - articulates very well what I was doing in Untitled, which in a way is about painting, about working quietly on the surface, reconfiguring small brushstrokes by way of changes in register, rhythm, articulation, etc.”

November 25, 2005

beth

Filed under: art — ABRAXAS @ 6:29 pm


hey

i’m flattered to have my face on your site.

i have been feeling down and dishevelled about the art world, what the hell am i
really doing here. woke up the other day to the sudden epiphany that - ‘golly
blonkers i only live once, i will die, and i do art (whatever that means
anyway) - all things considering that’s a big fuck-up.’ maybe i should become a
genetic engineerist where i could really mess things up but at least with a bit
of dignity.
i’ve been feeling like there is this possibly great thing inside, in my chest,
near my liver i presume if i were asked to locate it more precisely, and this
thing is weakening a little. i’m contemplating coughing it up just to take a
look. i’ll probably be confronted with a mangled foetus of discontent, singing
shrivelled songs of when it was a wee-child. i’m afraid i may then spank it and
send it to the painfully-self-absorbed-infantitically-bloodied death camp - so
i’d rather swallow hard and ignore its kickings to my ribcage.

anyway the reason why i’m mailing is to say that after paroozing your site today
i recieved so gracefully a pang of hope.

keep well.
beth.

November 24, 2005

unyazi

Filed under: kaganof short films — ABRAXAS @ 4:46 am


UNYAZI
Electronic Music Symposium and Festival 2005
1st - 4th September 2005
Johannesburg, South Africa
Venue
The Convent Building, Digital Arts, Viewing Room

Friday 2 September
20h00 (8pm) 63 minutes
ARYAN KAGANOF’s ELECTRONIC CINEMA Prt.1
Come To The Point
(5min,1995, Netherlands)
Blixa Bargeld of Einsturzende Neubauten performing a vocal piece accompanied by a matrix of shattered electronic loops.
Reich Dance Redemption
(8min,2004, South Africa)
Distorted postvideo fragments featuring music by Berlin inconoclast Alec Empire set to frantically edited hypertextbombs.
Techno: Space And Flow In The Radical Frame
(50min, 1995, Netherlands-Germany-Japan-United Kingdom)
An exploration of state of the art computer musics featuring interviews with David Toop, Scanner, Ken Ishi, Oval, Thomas Fehlmann, Pete Namlook and the music of Autechre, Kraftwerk, Neu, Herbie Hancock, Sun Electric, Karlheinz Stockhausen etc

Sunday 4 September
14h00 (2pm) 90 minutes
ARYAN KAGANOF’S ELECTRONIC CINEMA Prt 2
Two Heads Are Better Than One
(8min, 2005, South Africa) WORLD PREMIERE SCREENING
Electronic music composer Joel Assaizky provided the soundtrack for this radikal re:mix of a short film by Guto Bussab called The Incubus. Starring Czech actress Sylvia Saint this work has been completed just in time for world premiere at this festival.
Time Considered As A Helix Of Semi-Precious Stones
(20min, 2003, South Africa)
A slowly evolving re-mix experiment that seeks to fuse sound and image so that the eye hears and the ear sees. Soundtrack by Air, Underground Resistance, Kraftwerk etc
Signal To Noise
(9min,1997, Japan)
A collaboration beyond axis between Merzbow (Masami Akita) and Aryan Kaganof based on a short text by Roland Barthes, featuring music by Gore Beyond Necropsy and Merzbow.
Merzbow Beyond Snuff
(25min, 1998, Japan)
An open form documentary conceptually based on the Merzbau of Kurt Schwitters from which Masami Akita took the name for his electronic noise music project Merzbow. The Merzbau was a house made of garbage, a “junk house”. Schwitters designed and built it- it was the house a Dada architect would have built - with corridors going nowhere, rooms that imploded on themselves, windows facing nothing. The merzbau was destroyed by Allied bombers during the second world war. Inspired by the original merzbau, the documentary is a literally untenable construction, with many sections apparently entirely disconnected to either the topic or indeed, to sanity. It’s an extremely frustrating documentary for those who would like to see a BBC take on Merzbow. Not for the squeamish, the work features images from Akita’s rarely seen seppuku video series which feature beautiful and naked young Japanese women committing suicide.
Virgins Live
(27min, 2002, South Africa)
Pioneering work by South Africa’s only hardcore electronic noise outfit. Recorded at the NSA Gallery in Durban at the closing party of the Virgins exhibition, the police were called in to stop the action but both band members managed to sneak out via the ladies toilet window.

advance booking is recommended
for more information phone dimitri voudouris (083) 6321897
or check out the websites
www.newmusicsa.org.za
www.virusfilms.com
www.freedomfighter.co.za

November 23, 2005

my ghost in the bush of lies

Filed under: kaganof, reviews, paul wessels — ABRAXAS @ 6:25 am

MY GHOST IN THE BUSH OF LIES
AUTHOR: PAUL WESSELS
PUBLISHER: DEEP SOUTH PUBLISHING (ISBN:0-9584542-8-0)
PRICE R85,00

“This is the end, my offence, my word-bomb, disturbing the populace. My poem starts with everything and ends in nothing. I need some sort of skin. I’m all out of my own.”

My Life In The Bush Of Ghosts is the landmark African novel (by Amos Tutuola) that fused folklore with sci-fi and created a blueprint for a specific version of modernity that might be described as “ancient to the future”. But, instead of a literary parody of the classic Tutuola work, the title of Paul Wessels’ debut novel (?) My Ghost In The Bush Of Lies seems to be referring to the Brian Eno-David Byrne sonic collaboration that took its name from the Tutuola novel, and in transposing his medium of reference from the written word to the ghostly dub echoes and shimmering electronic soundscapes of the 1980 post-new wave classic, Paul Wessels has done his readers a great service.

“Dad comes into my room speaking Egyptian, which I don’t understand. He is saying that he’s come to narrate my history. I’m sitting on a bench in the city, he says, and I’m with this other guy. We light up. It’s Jean Baudrillard. Hello manno, he says. Fuckit, I say. So we get up and walk through the deserted streets. Take a short cut through the Carlton Centre. Walk up the escalators. On the landing is a beautiful woman, luminescent blue. She’s lying in a pool of water, dressed in a ballerina’s tutu. It’s cherry, says Baudrillard. Yes we’ve got to get that train, I say. So we pick her up, and carry her back to Baudrillard’s place. Walking across the fields, I try to do flips but I keep dropping Cherry, so I stop trying.”

The second difficulty concerns Paul Wessels’ use of masks. Navigating his literary masks can be exhausting and can produce a feeling of falling through his texts (the text suddenly flipping into the opposite of its apparent sense). This can occur within the pages of a single chapter, or even within a paragraph. “People who think deeply feel themselves to be comedians in their relationship with others because they have to simulate a surface in order to be understood.” These masks, or “simulated surfaces” occur throughout Wessels’ novel (?). Deep thinkers, according to Wessels, not only need and love masks, but “around every deep spirit there continually grows a mask.”

Three masks that Wessels wears while listening to himself playing My Ghost In The Book Of Lies: 1.The mask of Paulus Nomad, a providential idler, drug addict, whore, terrorist, madman, farmer, philosopher and writer. The book starts with his arrest and detention. 2. The mask of the literary critic. Nomad (or Wessels) reviews from his prison cell, three works of philosophical literature, by De Sade, Baudrillard and Nietzsche. These three reviews comprise a large chunk of the bulk of this 94 page novel (?). 3. The mask of the literary game player. The text of Wessels’ book is continually interrupted by lengthy italicised “interventions made up of the first complete sentence on page 15 of some books in my possession at various times of writing.”

Whilst wearing this third mask Wessels unfortunately falls prey to some snobbism perhaps inherent in using this technique and we are given tanatalising clues as to what sort of books were in his possession – lots of literary theory, Hegel, Kant, Raymond Quenau. These “interventions” would perhaps have worked better if the source material of the samples was less high-brow, Louis Lamour westerns for example, or Wilbur Smith.

If everything I’ve written thus far give an indication of a tough, obtuse, opaque, difficult to read text then I’ve failed miserably. Wessels’ great service to his readers is that he has brought a media savvy jouissance to South African writing, one I’ve not yet encountered elsewhere. His writing is an invitation to read quickly, to skim, its density of texture doesn’t slow the reader down but actually accelerates the pace of reading. In this sense My Ghost In The Book Of Lies is a hypertext, a mask of literature that would fit more readily on a computer screen, or a cell phone – SMS it in compact bursts to your entire mailing list, a work to be spread virally – that he has chosen to present the work as a novel (?) might turn out to be a mistake. It’s so furiously “post-modern” a work I can’t imagine many “novel” readers taking to it.

The truth is that Paulus Nomad doesn’t “go” anywhere and has absolutely nothing to say. The more he speaks the less he says. Whilst studying at Rhodes University, Grahamstown, he was forced to go into hiding for planting a word bomb. In prison he recognised chunks and phrases of theory, philosophy, prose, his own dreams. Some he did not recognise. “I suppose that’s more rubbish froom the rubbish”. What actually happens in My Ghost In The Book Of Lies is that Paul Wessels and his literary alter ego Paulus Nomad fuse. When you wear the mask of a lie for long enough it becomes the truth. “Life is political.”

Paul Wessels should not be taken seriously, that is, literally. We should spare him the indignity. he is far too important for that. He can not stop himself from believing that “every word uttered has a purpose”. And that purpose is to be unmasked! Every artist, every great artist, wants to get busted, to be revealed.

“I am deep in the bush. I am a double agent. We are under fire. My comrade in a red overall is shooting at us. He does not know that I am here. The bullets zip past my head. My cover is blown. They see through my eyes and see how I deliberately fire off-target, and now force me to take straight aim before firing. DO I GET OUT OF THE BUSH ALIVE, NOW THAT MY COVER IS BLOWN?”

The concept of My Ghost In The Bush Of Lies is to cut through the ossified notions of culture that belong to the analogue period.
We’re in the digital future now and our literature should reflect that, our cinema should reflect that. Paul Wessels’ book is a model of this new digital awareness that is medium specific in an entirely novel(?) way.

Aryan Kaganof

November 22, 2005

freedom fighter

Filed under: kaganof, freedom fighter — ABRAXAS @ 6:31 am


photo by dionysos andronis

hi there aryan-

i thought you were singing “all of god’s people let us
down somehow…eventually…eventually”…that’s also
a great song…put me down on your list to purchase a cd
soon as it comes off the machine…

first night wasn’t idyllic, sure…but still astonishing & interesting…
and the contrast between the punk performance and the rich tones
made the second night so much more special…

i said it was historic, and i really got that feeling, that
i was part of something big there…you know like the first
sex pistols gig in the art school, where there were only a
handful of people, but it later turned out that everybody
was there - siouxsie, billy idol, whatever & etc…so it
really felt momentous…i sort of joked about writing a
review about it, but i don’t think it’s possible…it was
too much…words could only make it smaller…
fuck it, i can’t tell you…it was spiritual…and perfect…

so goodnight then…

anton krueger

November 21, 2005

western4.33

Filed under: 2002 - western4.33 — ABRAXAS @ 12:57 am

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Western 4.33
Aryan Kaganof, Pays-Bas, Afrique du Sud, Namibie, 2002, n&b/couleurs, 32min, VO (dialecte namibien)

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Western 4.33
Il existe plusieurs types de films documentaires revenant sur des événements historiques, chacun mettant en place des stratégies esthétiques diverses pour rendre compte de leur sujet. Ainsi, peut-on passer d’un régime purement pédagogique à des tentatives plus radicales, questionnant, outre l’Histoire, la possibilité d’en parler ” en cinéma “. Le film d’Aryan Kaganof participe clairement à la seconde catégorie. Son objet, peu connu : les camps de concentrations que les colons allemands avaient construits au début du XXe siècle en Namibie. Le film se déplie, se déploie en une tentative de réactivation, de remémoration visuelle et intellectuelle de cette réalité-là. Un ” essai ” sensible, d’une richesse et d’une inventivité formelle, à voir absolument.

November 20, 2005

onder in my whiskeyglas

Filed under: kaganof, freedom fighter, koos kombuis — ABRAXAS @ 5:09 am

Hi Aryan, a reggae version of Whiskeyglas should sound great, would love to hear it ! You do not need my permission to perform the song in your live set, as long as you notify SAMRO of your performances ! I letter below grants permission for you to record the song, you must give this letter to SARRAL.
Thanks, Koos
For Attention: SARRAL

Date: 19 August 2005

Herewith permission is granted for the recording of the song titled Onder in My Whiskeyglas (Author/Composer: A. du Toit alias Koos Kombuis; Publisher: Trapsuutjies Uitgewers - SARRAL)
by Aryan Kaganof and the band Freedom Fighter.
All mechanical royalties must be paid to SARRAL.

Thank you.

André du Toit
For Trapsuutjies Uitgewers
PO Box 2055
Somerset West
7129
Tel 0837441270
kombuis@new.co.za

November 19, 2005

why i boycott berlin

Filed under: kaganof, miscellaneous — ABRAXAS @ 1:56 pm

hello joao
i was amazed tonight at how rude, thoughtless, inconsiderate and inhospitable you were
my two friends and i were attacked at your establishment
we were your guests
you were our host
you did absolutely NOTHING by way of making us feel in any way secure, safe, cared about
you absolutely ignored us and treated us as if it was OUR fault!!
you treated us like we were nothing more than a nuisance to you
this is not the way things are done
as the owner of an establishment you have a responsibility towards your clientele
once before while been pestered at your establishment by a drunk client i noticed that you did not have the balls to evict the drunkard but just sat around looking miserable
you are clearly not cut out to run an establishment of this sort in melville
i will never step into your establishment again
yours faithfully
aryan kaganof

November 18, 2005

life in the wires

Filed under: kaganof, reviews, philosophy — ABRAXAS @ 7:05 am

LIFE IN THE WIRES
THE C THEORY READER
ARTHUR & MARILOUISE KROKER editors
CTheory Books
ISBN 0-920393-21-7

Not only can one indeed judge a book by its cover but very often by its index.

This one has entries for the following:

technology 80
culture 69
power 69
language 57
media 55
speed 42
perception 39
consciousness 38
war 33
cinema 32
Deleuze, Gilles 32
identity 32
Foucault, Michel 31
architecture 29
Baudrillard, Jean 29
representation 28
desire 27
television 25
and Guattari, Felix 24
Virilio, Paul 23
Derrida, Jaques 22
aesthetics 21
simulation 18
Benjamin, Walter 15

It’s the same old same old post-left wing rhetoric; once radical thought now ossified as dogma.
Whenever you get the feeling that you’ve read it all before, remember that you have read it all before (simulation 18).
The best essay is Charles Mudede’s The Turntable which explains that hip hop isn’t music, it’s about music. The most unreadable essay (and there’s lots of competition) is Paul Hegarty’s Full With Noise: Theory and Japanese Noise Music and this I must reproduce (simulation 18) for you:

“The ‘real’ noise in noise music is this (not) crossing of the line that is (not) there: noise is not the other of the other that equals the same, but the other of the other as non-line, as what cannot be the same and cannot inhabit otherness. Where Derrida is outflanked by Merzbow is that Derrida says you cannot get outside, you cannot consciously outdo philosophy with a hammer, therefore you should not do it - instead you should not attack directly; should take an interest in “timbre, style, and signature (as they) are the same obliterating division of the proper.” Why not do it? Why not do it, knowing it cannot be done, that your noise is fatally compromised, part of failure? Merzbow is the getting outside that is not the completion of a new “inside”, but an endless outside, fated to be inside only to fail to ever be because of this arbitrary and perverse relation to the inside (or organised sound). Where Derrida says “no”, Merzbow is an immanent “yes”.”

Hmmm, maybe…(not)?

Aryan Kaganof

November 17, 2005

hectic

Filed under: reviews, 2002 - hectic! — ABRAXAS @ 7:06 pm

http://www.uwc.ac.za/arts/bushvibes/index.htm

REVIEW

Possibly the most daunting postcolonial novel to emerge from South Africa, Hectic most certainly lives up to its name.

The main character in the novel is a character called Cool Red Kowalski and all of the action is seen through his eyes. 

Cool Red is his 30s, but with no job, no money, no driver’s licence, no girlfriend and positively Neanderthal attitudes to other people,  his prospects are, ah, limited shall we say ?  Yet Kaganof uses this horribly flawed character to take us on a gut-wrenching picaresque journey through the various subcultures that inhabit the low life part of Sea Point,  Cape Town.

Kowalski lives on Carling Black Label, cadged sex, whatever drugs are going and through all this, he nurtures an ambition to marry the bizarre Miss Absa Mallurby, the barmaid queen of Stones pool hall.  Along with his buddy Sven and occasionally the ugly and horribly screwed up girl, Spacey, Cool Red Kolwalski endures a number of excruciating incidents, all of which are building towards the novel’s explosive ending.

Couched in a deliciously wicked ironic framework, this novel blazes along at warp speed.  Beware though, it’s not for the faint hearted as Kowalski appears to have a full frontal go at anything that crosses his path.  Car guards, Afrikaners, politicians, Rasta’s, the magic mushroom Observatory hippy types and pretty much everybody in between, are pulled apart by a character with no obvious moral framework.  This, ironically, is what gives the novel its strength.  The humour borders on the grotesque most of the time, but in fine postcolonial style, the function of the humour is to subvert entrenched conservative values and challenge supposedly enlightened or democratic attitudes.

Hectic is tough meat.  Some will find the text too “18 SVL” for their liking.  But Hectic needs to be read; it deserves to be on an underground list of “must reads” along with Bitterkomix and the recent stuff by Koos Kombuis.  If there was a single novel that could signal a spiraling breakaway direction in SA postcolonial writing, then Hectic must rank as the groundbreaker.

The writer, Aryan Kaganof, is a South African filmmaker who went into exile during the apartheid years.  Whilst living and working in the Netherlands, he established a global reputation for aggressive underground documentaries and in your face short films.  Hectic represents something of a first for independent or self publishing in SA.  It has been through 5 printings since 2002 and is a product of the new technology of print-on-demand.  Basically print-on-demand requires that a text be completed in digital format and copies are printed as and when required; there being no need for vast print volumes as in a conventional print run.  This process permits an author to bypass traditional publishing routes and take control of the entire book production and marketing process for him/herself. 

I bought my copy at Exclusive Books, ironic proof that even the most radical and subversive things run the risk of being embraced by the establishment!

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November 16, 2005

tell tale

Filed under: helge janssen — ABRAXAS @ 6:31 am


“I feel I cannot possibly do this book justice in a review.
It is too big for that, too encompassing.
Tell Tale defies categorisation and description.
It is a book that has to be read.
It is the soundtrack of a life.”

Award-winning poet Michelle McGrane reviews TELL TALE,
Helge Janssen’s debut novel, on LitNet,
South Africa’s premiere literary site.

Read the full review
http://www.litnet.co.za/indaba/tell_tale.asp

buy the book
(available throughout south africa from all good book sellers)

November 15, 2005

correspondence 2

Filed under: kaganof, kerkhof short films — ABRAXAS @ 10:10 pm


yes, you twisted boy-

since you gave us something tonight i thought i’d bounce something back to
you here,
in terms of a response to your screening…yes…was something new to react
to that,
in some way felt that what the performers were doing, in terms of seeing how
far they
could go…(the girl trying to see just how far she could stretch her skin
before
the hooks ripped her back right open), was also being expected of the
audience…
we all became complicit in this challenge, in this game, to see how long one
could
keep watching without allowing one’s eyes to drift to the side of the screen
or to
go right out and throw right up, kind of thing…at least i was…

went through a distinctly queasy phase there, though more so the fool for
having drunk
that wine on top of the codeine laced sinutab…so broke into a real nauseas
claustrophobic
sweat…but mercifully escaped the cloying by taking an interest in the
expression of
the finite form of the flesh and meditations on mortality…and was
interested in
how the eating of the blood was seen as the ultimate low/high point, when
the symbolisation
of that cannibalistic unity is undergone thoughtlessly by so many billions
every sunday…
was also thinking about how if some of these are abused people
(in terms of what you were saying about one of the girls & also your line
with the
japanese porno queen in that “she learnt to enjoy the rapes”), then this
surely a very
healthy thing for them to be doing…instead of feeling ashamed about what
happened to
them, and how they feel about discipline and punishment…and what memories
and desires
they carry within them…rather let them show the world…for sure…

i thought that in terms of the body…i mean in terms of that ultimate place
beyond
narrative, and representation, it seemed kind of contradictory to be filming
something,
or trying to “capture” this experience…i mean, in terms of the naked
actor, the brute
core flesh…etc…experience….

in terms of aesthetics…i don’t now…i think one would have to become cold
in order to
enjoy it in the abstract…it would have to be a pretty unemotional
aesthetic…as they
tend to be…

it seemed a strange thing to me a while ago when you said something about me
seeming to
be unemotional, or something, or at least my writing…”chilly” i think was
the word…
and yet it’s hard for me to recognise or realise the emotions you may or may
not experience…
because they can seem pretty brutal…which is a different idea of emotion,
i mean the very opposite
of what one normally associates with the more traditional realm of emotions,
such as “soft”
and “romantic”, and so on and so forth…what are they then?…energy &
passion?…
can strength be an emotion?…and courage?…and derring-do?…is intensity
an emotion in
its own right?…or a nuance of others?…i don’t know…it’s hard to
imagine you feeling
surprise or embarrassment or even sustained sorrow…though i can imagine
you feeling
glad and angry…

…you’re a disturbing guy, man…you have these incredibly insightful and
completely
rational explanations…and the world you describe yourself as seeing really
fits
together like a perfect jigsaw…i mean, your world really makes sense, you
know…and yet
it makes the ordinary world seem perverse and bizarre and unreal and
dishonest…(should
that be an “and yet”?…maybe just “and”…)

okay, well…some ideas…some reflections…if i have nightmares tonight
you’re fuckin’
paying for my therapy…

anton krueger.

Filed under: kaganof, kaganof short films — ABRAXAS @ 7:48 am

November 10, 2005

Kagablog Begins

Filed under: kaganof — ABRAXAS @ 12:34 am

Kagablog just installed and ready to blog.
Stones Again receives oscar for best book written by a Kaganof. [this is a test post by admin]

stones again

women queue to buy new kaganof book
Eager women queue to buy new kaganof book.