nicole
I just went onto your website.
You are a true artist! Bit sick, Bit beautiful
Bit fall-in-lovely
Bit “can I please gouge my eyes out with a Victorian fish fork”
You are a true honest!
I would never swap kidneys with you though,
even though you offer them up,
like a child
with your big grey copied eye (s).
You forget that I can see the years of drinking,
the slight grey tinges
the fly that you didn’t flick off
because your big grey eyes
were filled with tears and you couldn’t see right.
Bit drunk on years of tearing.
Needed me to take them,
Needed me too.
I’m not going to show you my kidneys though.
even though any black market dealer would love to have mine more.
they
Needed me different.
True!
I say all this because your kidneys are just fine (bring on the pilling)
even though I love you
would have your child
even if I wouldn’t have you.
You needed me because you took everyone you didn’t need.
And now I won’t swap one for one because,true artist,
I’m not going to be another fly you forgot to flick off.
artist,
I wish I wanted your kidneys.
Love Eternal
Nicole Rouillard
January 30th, 2006 at 2:28 am
“Don’t forget that I belong to solitude, that I must not need anyone, that all my strength is born from this detachment.”
-Rilke and Benvenuta: an Intimate Correspondence
March 1st, 2006 at 8:07 pm
dont indulge like this nicole rouillard
there are no artists in the vacinity
March 1st, 2006 at 8:32 pm
it’s vicinity
September 11th, 2006 at 6:22 pm
I love it all