I see you
There is water coming out the sides of my eyes
Leaking dripping involuntary
You know how it is
Swallow down beer in the darkest corner
The cheap stuff whatever they have on tap
Dry peanuts salt that sticks in the back of your throat
Seeds that you knock back to fill any silence
If you fill your body you can fill your soul
I feel so lonely sometimes when I talk to you
And I don’t like how that feels
It didn’t used to be this way
We were once on the same page, weren’t we
There was once a we to speak of
My body is shaking now but I say I’m cold
It’s the weather you know how it is
Is there so much distance between us that you can’t read me anymore
Or do you not care as much as you used to
I’m going to go home run my hands under cold water
Watch the blue ( I have no gloves) turn to red
I’m going to lie in the bath with the lights off
Tell myself I did everything I could
I fought when it was time to fight and I understood when it was time to understand
I’m going to cry and hope when you can’t see me
I’m going to let go only when I’m ready
I’m not ready to give up on you yet ( even though I know that everything is changing I see it I see you)

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