notes from stella
reflecting on lost moments
the ones that are
that were
that could have been but never appeared.
we get so caught up in the cycle of life
where we put the ego ahead of the heart
barely pausing to see what we have and hold
that matters beyond the daily grind
until..
well, until its too late
and all the reflection and remorse in the world
can’t bring those lost moments back.
“you don’t know what you’ve got till you lose it -
or its gone.”
why does the silly season conjure up so many quotable clichés?
so the
fragile
little
transient
moments
come and go.
its not till afterward that
(with the gift of hindsight)
we can be aware of their significance.
for some of the blessed, or cursed, few
we can catch a glimmer of a moment passing
that we know we may later regret,
but the egoic consciousness is too strong
to let the hearts warmth melt the ego’s pride.
and then.. - ?
and then we are left to ponder
if we will ever be able to make amends.
maybe in the next life
that can never come too soon
or be kept at bay too long..
i guess the point of all these swarming thoughts is,
as we all know but never seem to manage,
to be present in every way.
to try and remember the people and things
that matter to us most
throwing off the shackles of the
inanely mundane factors of existence
and
to give all that we have
to love and
to our hearts true calling.
then, and most importantly of all,
we could find true gratitude,
true peace,
in, and of,
every moment that we get to share
with others and with ourselves.
Christmas has almost been and gone
(depending on where you are in the world)
and my wish for all is
that we can find the miracle of now.
Stella* @ December 25th 2007
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