now with you
for every thought i think of
and
about you
a find a million questions surfacing,
each fighting their way to the top
none ever winning out over the other.
overwhelming,
this thirst for limitless time
for purity
for truth
for sharing with you.
i feel transfixed in a state of
contradictory desires
as i search for the truth of what i know.
i want to ask you a million
agendaless questions
and i want to hold you for very
long periods of time.
i’d love a map of your head so that i could
trace my way to you,
your-actual-self
and once i’d found you
i would never let you go.
i skip ahead.
i fall behind.
but all i really want is
now
with
you.
January 30th, 2008 at 11:34 pm
.beautiful.