cecilia on conflicted sexuality
I found the comment on Anton’s porn piece extremely interesting. “No more reality for me please” writes with beautiful honesty.
Sex without nudity is the most interesting concept.
No vulnerability, no exposure. Can sex exist without it? I don’t think porn can. Porn is like a rehearsed advert reminding us where the blood can run to. Suits (birthday suits) are usually needed to come across to the viewer.
If there is no revelation of the body parts being associated with becoming aroused, would sex be as pleasurable? Even if you are born blind, there must be ways for your brain to “visualize” sexual organs, breasts, facial expression during orgasm etc. If you are born deaf, would you be able to imagine what a lover’s breath and voice sound like during the act? Sex is an act performed with every single sense. Even inhibited sex puts one in a defenceless place. Inhibition, not being able to cross the boundaries of your own hang-ups, is the most obvious form of nudity. White suits covering your whole body except for the areas that matter might just arouse your partner more. Imagination is visualization with extra strong glasses on. And no matter how you cover yourself up, when the orgasm happens you die. Is there a more pure form of exposure? Can one be more naked than during an orgasm, with clothes on or not?
Drugs during sex usually clothe you wonderfully. Your lack of inhibition on drugs is a fantastic cover up.
I think being in conflict with one’s own sexuality is extremely sexy. And brave.
Wishing your most primal attribute would just cease to exist?
That is some serious conflict, since instinct is the most powerful manipulator.
Brain vs body? It’s the same thing.
December 19th, 2008 at 2:32 pm
ag tos man ekt nounet iets beaut geseg en die blof spuugituit!!!!!!!!
December 19th, 2008 at 2:37 pm
Dear Joel and/or AK - if’s me original comment is retrievable from the gook-glowing wastescape of rejected spamlikes… please repost it. Was sent just prior reactive explosion posted (? why that was posted me knows not) above.
December 19th, 2008 at 8:36 pm
mik mok man, yr flippen odd guy…but i like yr jabberwocky text style…keep on in it and soon we’ll all be talkin it…
i just wrote a different response to the response to which cecilia is responding, so won’t repeat it here..but i find your attraction to conflicted sexuality interesting…i’m not sure i’d necessarily agree though…people being confident and taking possession of their sexuality seems more sexy to me…if they’re conflicted then it feels as though they want me to decide for them and i don’t like doing that, being pacifistically inclined etc and always wary of exercising an influence…or maybe just being a wuss etc…
i think one thing pornography does is make sexual relations appear to be transparant and easy..it’s erica jong’s perfect zipless fuck, which feels like it moves beyond the actual imperfect aging body, the body that needs…none of those bodies have any needs, like sleep or food or tenderness, they are all whole and self contained…and in this way like automatons mostly…
December 19th, 2008 at 10:04 pm
ant won on (gratuitious ship arriving too reference)
I believe myself gifted in ink (which means gifted in foot-to-mouth and out) buts really the aboves were un-intendo. Me’s been assaulted in the pornographic of meaning/she-ning/he-ning all eve (yes me’m biased).. tmorrow’s me’ll lickspond to your open-ended tation on the ol Pornograph. Fascinating blandwheel he be..
Miaout. With intent.
December 20th, 2008 at 1:37 pm
hmm.. the body lacks
and needs tenderness,
deaf dumb or blind
the residue
of the beauty
of the inner self
stripped bare before a lover..
i repeat.. a lov-er..him or her.
i am clumsy.. and withdrawn
about my own sexuality
i see it not as sexy but as
traumatic.
thanks for trying..though.
December 21st, 2008 at 10:51 am
traumatic?
December 21st, 2008 at 10:52 am
or normal?
December 21st, 2008 at 2:29 pm
what we bring
in our naked bodies
is our raw fear
normal or
traumatic..
brought on by experience..
or the lack of..
December 27th, 2008 at 10:55 am
fucking is fucking
December 29th, 2008 at 11:53 am
anonymoys
i think you just hit the nail on the head
December 29th, 2008 at 2:30 pm
atypical swellulae of negative space in last response. Dearidda
December 30th, 2008 at 1:12 pm
then write about fucking as a
fucking act of fucking
not a long intellectual
disemboweling of guilt
and conflict
and hey aint
that wat personal
porn is
fucking..
December 31st, 2008 at 11:55 am
take a chill pill femi
it’s the season to be merry