some thoughts on the films i made
i had another thought about this that i wanted to share with you
from 1990 to about 1999
i made a series of films and videos that were extremely, well, extreme
films that explored, researched and analysed extreme sub-cultures
films that researched sex, violence, misogyny and pornography
to this day i am still being contacted by people who see these films, or have seen them once, who expect me to be some kind of guru of the perverse, who can introduce them to even deeper depths of weirdness, or beat them or torture them or get them connected to the “scene”, whatever or wherever that might be. people who imagine me to be a kind of dark lord or something…
it is still strange and disconcerting for me to discover and be confronted with the kind of people who actually liked and enjoyed those films
FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS
that’s the weird thing
the library that i built up was evidence of decline
evidence of a world gone mad
and the fact that people, some people, actually loved those films, is of course proof of the theory
but nonetheless very disturbing!
so
i did learn that the work itself, although being a direct product of my own concerns and themes and issues
is not necessarily perceived in that way
or read in that way
or understood in that way
and the terrible truth is
that the way people read and perceive the work
is as much real as the way i intend the work
it’s no less valid for not being what i am about!
maybe it’s more valid!!!
one has to let go
really let go, of the work
otherwise it is a total mindfuck
and there is nothing worse than meeting so-called “fans” who quote one against what one has become
“but you said XXXXX in 1993 when you were still cutting edge…!!!”
boy it’s depressing
aryan kaganof
August 12th, 2009 at 9:40 pm
that the sliced
bounce and blush with stardom
today’s Popidolart
August 14th, 2009 at 2:15 pm
In my personal case, I never considered you as a “guru of the perverse”. And I keep loving your last and new films that I found a little bit “academic” (as you were in Malmo before).
And I totally agree that “it is depressing” being a GREAT AND ORIGINAL ARTIST (like you), but not so famous all over the world.
So now I know very well that “cinema is a necrophile parody for bourgeois spectators”.
But I really hope that friendship is above all. Your faithfull fans wait for your next films.