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February 3, 2018

How and why I died

Filed under: kaganof — ABRAXAS @ 5:10 pm

After a while I began to think of all the films I was making as scripts, scripts for larger, better, more polished films; films that I would never make.
Eventually I realised that even the films that I had made were films that I had never made, for surely I was not me anymore, not that person who had made those films back then.
Thus it was that a great distancing came over me, and sometimes I wallowed in that distance and sometimes I stumbled but always there was this great cloud of peace that never lifted – for I had become, finally, entirely extricated from the being that I had been and, at last, I was free.
Aryan Kaganof

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