kagablog

May 16, 2008

chimurenga

Filed under: jimmy "wordsworth" rage, stacy hardy, literature — ABRAXAS @ 1:33 pm


December 26, 2007

quote of the day

Filed under: stacy hardy, philosophy — ABRAXAS @ 1:29 am

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“expressions of respect and admiration merely leave one perplexed and disorientated. this is because one is robbed of one’s defences by the impossibility of rejecting or answering them (with an equivalent sign). It is, then, like being paralysed by an insulin jab. admiration is the intraveneous form of aggressiveness. this is why its so difficult to express or receive. if it is true that it is a passion, then its expression is of the order of the crime of passion.” -

baudrillard, fragments

December 5, 2007

the donkey fuckers

Filed under: stacy hardy, literature — ABRAXAS @ 1:03 am

this exquisite short recollection by stacy hardy is available as part of pieter hugo’s messina/musina, a coffee table photography book published by punctum press (www.punctumpress.com). isbn 978-88-95410-03-6.
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October 17, 2007

Digital Africa: the Remix Reading by Stacy Hardy

Filed under: art, stephen hobbs, stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 11:55 pm

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From the start Digital Africa felt different. First there was its setting. Located in amongst the art at the Africa Remix Exhibition at the Jozi Art Gallery in the heart of the city’s CBD, getting there required us to first navigate the chaos of the down-town taxi rank. 9am and bizi-ness already in full swing: office-bound suits jostling against illegal immigrants; street vendors selling black pirate technology; a cardboard signing promising “Dr Abu solves all your problems. Brings luck in business matters. True & lasting love.” A place where worlds collide and the sounds come from outside –American gangsta rap mixing it up with kwaito beats and Soukous sounds; a polyglot of different rhymes and rhythms reconfiguring the notion of ethnicity and identity in a crazy stew of “anything goes”.

Entering into JAG offered little relief. Instead we were faced with Simon Njami’s sprawling Africa Remix: an explosive exhibition featuring 85 artists from 25 countries on the African continent and the Diaspora that aimed to reshuffle the cards, “to show that our present situation is hybrid in character and therefore a reflection of globalization.”

Then there was the conference’s structure. Instead of corralling speakers, practitioner and thinkers into their respective disciplines or framing sessions under neat headings, Digital Africa mixed it up. Session One set the tone: throwing together artists, curators, architects and urban geographers and interspersing them with art interventions and live link-ups to the rest of the continent.

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Straight outa Egypt, curator Bassam El Baroni kicked things off. He started with a warning on the postcolonial drive to deploy technology as a social and political tool. Speaking out against what he termed “digital orientalism”, he called for artists to fly in the face of the rhetoric of education and business and to seek out a “new New Media language”, one cut free from the traps and tropes of old mean-and-manipulation systems.

Next up, urban geographer and artist Ismael Farouk presented examples of his own practice. Inhabiting the borderlands between commercial needs and urban activism, Farouk detailed his drive to find new artistic and technological methodologies to understand, map and explore the contemporary African urban environment and in so doing to challenge the forces of globalisation in their race to realign the city in the heirarchy of the global economy.

The live crossing to Saki Mafiundikwa at the Zimbabwe Institute of Vigital Arts further undermined the myth of the global economy. Breaking with the utopian belief that globalization automatically equals the “global village”, Mafiundikwa highlighted the imbalances of power that characterise contemporary Africa – quite literally by drawing attention to the unstable power supply that prohibits the use of technology in so many African cities. “Digital Africa,” suggested Mafiundikwa should be renamed “Africa Offline”.

“Digital Africa,” vs “Africa Offline”; mobility vs memory; fixed lines vs commuter culture all came into play in architect Mpheti Morojele presentation on his provocative architectural practice that attempts to deal with legacies of the dislocated city, to accommodate rural habits in urban settings and to allow for the new lifestyles of a culture going through transition. In the light of his experiences, he called for artists and urban planners to rethink their concept of the 21st century city and to displace stereotypes with strategies that look at the “city as road”, account for commuter culture, address the lack of infrastructure and highlight the ongoing interplay between mobility and memory that characterise today’s migrant mobile populations.

Respondent Jason Hobbs advocated a similar from-the-ground-up approach. According to Hobbs, instead of falling victim to the “World Wide Wait” that comes with the delay in government delivery of infrastructure, African cities are “getting on with it” themselves, setting up informal internet cafes and switching over to cellular culture.


The final provocation from the panel was a hard hitting one, coming from artist, film maker and provocateur Aryan Kaganof who bit back at the Afro-digirati for playing into the hands of commerce in their preoccupation with mapping. Dismissing the practise as the “Emperors New Bytes”, a fashion trend that mindlessly follows corporate concerns he suggested that perhaps “New media is a good place not to be.”

Being and non-being? Wired vs weird? Kulcha and commerce? The contradictions didn’t stop there. In fact if anything, the second panel was more dizzying. Writer, academic and cultural producer Adam Haupt opened up with a paper addressing global capitalism, technology and intellectual property. He explored how the balance of power was upset in favour of the corporation and highlighted the need for new ways of approaching the creation, the production and the dissemination of knowledge.
From there it was a fast jump-cut to archaeologist and museologist Lorna Abungu, who took on the challenges of reconciling history and development, tradition and technology. Drawing on her experiences at institutes across the continent, she warned against global hi-tech hegemony and called for technology to be adapted to suit specific local contexts.

Similarly entrepreneur and businessman Pavlo Phitidis cruised the contradictions of Digital Africa, calling for a new definition of “upwardly mobile” that includes tech-savvy, lower-income urban dwellers and commuters who are creating a new, dynamic street-level high-tech economy based on mobility and the mobile phone.
Finally it was over to the respondents who were left to sum things up. An impossible task? Precisely! As both Christo Doherty (Head of Digital Arts at WITS) and story-teller Lindiwe Nkutha suggested: the discussions at Digital Africa left more questions than answers. It is, however, precisely this irresolution that constitutes a large measure of the discussion’s value.

Rather than offer specific solutions, answers to all your problems, luck in business matters, true & lasting love, Digital Africa was a provocative remix that brought about sense of permanent uncertainty about the role of art and technology in our lives. In this sense it was a true African Remix: an open system mash-up that invited us all to break with the utopian belief that globalization automatically equals the “global village” and that hi-tech solutions are smarter than low-tech interventions. Think a sometimes chaotic, even incoherent intellectual mixed tape that provoked us all to use technology to question both the silence of colonial domination and domination of post-colonial discourse: to excavate forbidden pasts; to express nonconformist desires; to create dis-census in the pursuit of “usable” solutions to present-day representational dilemmas - and to do so in a way that privileges the telling of a much more complex story of African life, one that reflects the myth of “post-colonialism” (where traditional colonial “mother” countries have simply been replaced by multinational corporations) and explores our cities as the archipelagos of cultural difference they truly are.

At the same time it was a call to remix, re-look, relocate and radicalise the very discourse and the language we use to explore and discuss these issues; to be aware of the relationship between technology and language and to acknowledge how language is used to dominate and control. And, yeah, call it over-optimistic or even jingoistic but, in so doing, to just possibly begin to create a new language, a multidisciplinary one that reflects that “difference determines differently” and speaks to the here and the now; a language that is our own and empowers us to explore and work in the continual slipstream between our memories of the past and our aspirations for the future.

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AFRICA REMIX PANEL DISCUSSION # 2
DIGITAL AFRICA
28 July 2007 10:00-16:00, Johannesburg Art Gallery
The Digital Africa discussion explored a diversity of approaches to the debate on art and technology in Africa. Examining locally relevant and creative uses of technology across varied fields and disciplines, the panel focused on how this ultimately influences the production and definition of contemporary African art.
Chaired by Marcus Neustetter and Stephen Hobbs (The Trinity Session)
The discussion panels comprised of Adam Haupt (Cape Town), Ismail Farouk (JHB), Mpheti Morojele (JHB), Lorna Abungu (Kenya), Bassam El-Baroni (Egypt), Pavlo Phitides (JHB), Jason Hobbs (JHB), Aryan Kaganof (JHB) and Christo Doherty (JHB), Stacy Hardy (CPT), Gerrard Foster (JHB), Lindiwe Nkutha (JHB)

Artist projects, online and mobile contributions and a live reports from Saki Mafundikwa (Zaimbabwean School of Vigital Art), Goddy Leye (Cameroon), Marion Louisgrand (Senegal), James Webb (CPT) and Keith Goddard from the Tonga.Online project (Sinazongwe, Zambia) were presented during the day. Interactive mobile phone question and answer opportunities were provided during the sessions.

September 30, 2007

africa remix digital discussion

Filed under: kaganof, stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 10:21 pm

In relation to the exhibition Africa Remix, Africalia was hosting a full day seminar or discussion programme, at JAG, on African art, and I was sort of lucky to enjoy the first half. Ismail Farouk had a piece on his work, including five minutes of infoporn on SowetoUprisings.com.
Ismail was on a panel with a few other South African artists, one of them being Aryan Kaganoff (sic), whom is ‘known’ for shooting a film with a cellphone. Kaganoff (sic) tried to be the enfant terrible of the panel and succeeded in coming across as extremely arrogant.
Also on the panel was a Stacy Hardy who liked to talk about bringing digital social networks to the people and although she said all the right words, I couldn’t deduce whether she was actually any good as far as understanding the technical aspects of digital social networks go.
But the worst addition to the panel, albeit temporarily, was Danielle Roney. Although pleasant to listen to and well spoken, her presentation and idea of putting up a series of internet kiosks which she herself designed (gasp!) to bring into contact people from as far away as Johannesburg and Beijing felt ten years overdue. She even dared to show a video, recorded a week earlier, a picture-in-picture video, of someone in Johannesburg, talking (”about anything”) with someone from Atlanta.
Next, she was going to build on the synergy of the Beijing olympics and take this wonderful technology to China, I’m sure to bring people across the globe closer together.
Seriously, what crap is this? Someone is actually paying her to do this shit? Get a kiosk; install an operating system; install any one of a host of instant messaging or video conferencing tools; put one kiosk in Jo’burg and the other in Atlanta (or Beijing or, wait a minute, both!) and, voila, you’re done.

this article originally appeared on a blog called babakfakhamzadeh

September 17, 2007

avant garde anyone?

Filed under: art, stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 3:24 pm

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August 8, 2007

julius eastman: evil nigger crazy nigger etc

Filed under: african noise foundation, stacy hardy, music — ABRAXAS @ 3:57 pm

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this article first appeared on chimurenga

August 7, 2007

Beliefs Reasonable, Unreasonable Beliefs

Filed under: miscellaneous, art, stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 5:36 pm

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THE PRIMARY REFERENTS for Warhol’s Campbell’s soup cans, Brillo boxes, images of Mao and Marilyn Monroe, etc., etc., are either nondiscoverable or discoverable in an almost anecdotal sense, i.e., we “know” that there is, somewhere, a first print of the Mao photograph, but that we have never seen this first print does not in any way deny us access to the image. In that there are no primary referents, Warhol’s images are not imitations or resemblances but similitudes, in Magritte’s sense of the word. It is not altogether frivolous to suggest, then, that any Campbell’s soup can or any Brillo box in the commercial series of same has the identical artistic value as Warhol’s; this is even more reasonable when one considers that the artist’s appropriation of these images does not put an end to the series: a Warhol finds itself in the curious position of being but one in a literally numberless series of identical similitudes. Warhol was perfectly candid about his means and the valueless quality of his pieces, but nothing could stop the purchase of his products at prices astronomically higher than their supermarket similitudes.

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Philip Larkin’s views on post-1940s jazz (bop and after) is yet another indication that writers have no corner on intelligence when not writing.

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I have never read a review of a play by Samuel Beckett in which the reviewer’s ignorance of Beckett’s fiction was not made clear.

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All popular culture is essentially the same, i.e., it cannot transcend its audience-attentive whatness, nor can it escape the universe of camp toward which it is pointed at the moment of its birth. Lawrence Welk really is the same as Mick Jagger and “Saturday Night Live” the “Ed Sullivan Show”’s other face.

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No fatal disease is privileged, and all disease is as natural as health. To believe otherwise is to believe that we are “supposed to” die in a certain, “reasonable” way, sans pain and sadness. This attitude toward mortality makes for a lot of misery.

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Jenny Holzer’s signature piece might read: SUBVERSIVE COMPLICITY HAS ITS REWARDS.

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Journalists are always bad writers because they think that fiction is an elaboration of reality, like reporting.

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That Charles Olson made indisputably great poetry does not obviate the fact that he was also the Wizard of Oz.

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There are few things more disgusting than a superior, mocking, self-important review of a trashy book by a hack writer.

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Abstract love and generalized compassion increase in direct proportion to organized social viciousness.

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To say that conceptual artists cannot, as a rule, paint is, of course, a cheap shot, but conceptual artists, nonetheless, cannot, as a rule, paint.

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The relentless fear of assuming transitions has placed the contemporary film on a par, narratively speaking, with the nineteenth-century novel–and still moving backward.

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A common piety is that television has never realized its potential. But television is wholly powered by marketing demographics, and so it seems that it has not only reached but exceeded its potential. Television knows this, which is more than can be said for the film business, which still wears the tatters that it calls art. David Letterman is a supreme, a paradigmatic hack of the TV business, while Robert Altman, say, is an artist fighting the good fight in a philistine industry. Sure.

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My father didn’t speak English until he was eleven, at which time he left school and went to work on the Brooklyn waterfront. His letters, despite an occasional spelling error or grammatical gaffe, are written in a better prose than can be managed by most of the university undergraduates I’ve taught. He was far from unique.

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To believe that “life isn’t fair” is to believe that there is a kind of contract between us and life, and that bad luck, unhappiness, misery, illness and so on “unfairly” break the contract. But there is no contract, and life is, simply, there.

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If, as Goethe’s Mephistopheles says, all theory is gray, theory concerning theory is Joycean brown.

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One of the more amazing feats of the painters of the New York School has been, apparently, to convince revisionist art historians and theorists that they had no aesthetic beyond romantic grandiosity.

Artists who pretend that they are no more than workers in the arts are neither artists nor workers.

To say that most book reviewers are lazy, illread and addicted to the banal is like saying “war is hell” or “greed is the root of evil.” These remarks hide their truths behind the deadening familiarity of their verbal representations; but they are truths nevertheless.

Popular art reflects and flatters popular culture, or, if you prefer, the Zeitgeist. In retrospect, it sometimes seems as if it leads and influences the true culture, or the innate wisdom of a people, but this isn’t so.

Small-time grifters work harder to make fifty dollars than they would washing dishes, but they don’t think they are working.

The derelict’s patter, his con, his aggressive, humiliated, defiant, abject, insulted and insulting language and demeanor is precisely all that is left of him; it has become his personality.

The essential problem with the literary scholar is that he thinks, deep down, that the sort of labor he expends on a book on, for instance, Faulkner, is the same sort of labor that Faulkner expended in writing his books. The difference is, apparently, merely one of intent.

An academic being interviewed on a radio talk show is speaking of Balthus’s paintings: “They are supposedly erotic … erotic to whom?” Is it too obvious to remark that they’re erotic to the painter? But then the painter doesn’t count, he’s an occasion.

What do writers mean when they say that their characters “assert themselves,” “take on lives of their own,” “start doing what they feel like doing” and so on? Are they suggesting that they can’t destroy all these words? Are they suggesting that they can’t control their narratives?

There is no sexuality in Raymond Carver’s stories–or, I should say, his story.

For all of its rigidity and the Jansenist meanness of various of its interpretations, Roman Catholicism is full of gaiety and even frivolity. Grace, for instance, is conferred directly by a sacrament, ex opere operato, with no consideration for the moral state of the minister or the recipient. We can imagine a drunken and debauched priest confessing the Marquis de Sade, and all is OK. This is, surely, a reproach to allthings puritanical, an understanding that flesh is only flesh, and that God is God and not part of us. There’s a kind of lively discretion about such a faith.

There are few things more reassuring than a decent supply of “fuck you” money.

Artists who mock or denigrate brand-name products in their work are advertising them.

Women who wear trousers, jeans, man-tailored shirts and jackets, etc., etc., are generally presented to society as either sexually attractive or sexually neutral; while men in skirts, high heels, makeup, etc., etc., are, by and large, figures of general hilarity. This is an infallible indicator of male power and privilege. Women, so to speak, don’t even have to be denigrated, because they have no true sociocultural authority. What is most interesting about this stylistic “wrinkle” is that women have been somehow persuaded that their mundane transvestism is an instance of liberty. Perhaps it is.

During the heyday of the big bands in the forties, they regularly appeared, as the stage entertainment, at all the first-run movie palaces in New York. To my recollection, the only white bands to play the Strand were those of Charlie Barnet and Louis Prima. Barnet’s band played charts that were distinctly different from the other white bands of the day, and the band had a dark swagger to it. Prima’s band, loud, energetic and slightly undisciplined, had an odd, Moten-style sound, which was particularly strange in combination with its repertory of novelty numbers, the latter usually heavily laced with Sicilian-Italian lyrics of the “low” and vulgar variety. Both were rogue bands, so to speak, in the world of white swing, and it seems clear, at this remove, that they were thought of as black bands, and so treated by booking agents.

One of the defensive strategies of the poor is to pretend, to outsiders, that poverty is mysterious, exotic and difficult to understand. But as anyone who has been poor knows, poverty is the simplest of all things to understand: its victims are ciphers sans money, goods or power.

NB: Rap performers, whose appearance, lyric messages and publicity presentations serve to place them outside the norms of middle-class society, are enlisted in the army that displays corporate logos so as to sell corporate products to young people whose exclusion from middle-class society is partially defined by these rap performers’ personae. The performers, whose labors insure a financial success that places them squarely within the norms of middle-class society, gather about them an aura of affluence and success that is, flatly, beyond any attempt to ironize it. The exploitation of performers and consumers is, quite weirdly, perceived as an assault upon the corporate establishment that coordinates the interaction of product and consumer. This is a dream of capitalism come true, i.e., to make the marks feel as if they have attained power.

Artists, in old age, should not appear eagerly grateful for belated attention to their work. A decent courtesy is more than sufficient.

Gilbert Sorrentino

August 4, 2007

chimurenga 11 - poets who refuse to speak

Filed under: stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 11:16 am


July 28, 2007

stacy hardy speaking at africa digital remix

Filed under: art, stephen hobbs, stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 5:21 pm


July 27, 2007

Pin the Tail on the Donkey

Filed under: stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 2:12 pm

Miles says he wants to take some photographs of me, erotic photographs like Richard Kern’s. “You mean porn pictures?” I’m terrified, Miles sees me naked every night when we fuck, but the thought of posing for him terrifies me.
“Well, yes, but not like that.”
“Well, like what?”
“For starters, you have nice legs.”

The next day I go to the library and look at pictures by Richard Kern. I look at a series entitled “Submit to me, submit to me now” from 1996. In the photographs Kern has asked people to act out their fantasies for him while he acts as audience and provocateur. In one, a woman stands seductively under a shower, but something about her expression belies her total availability. In another a smirking brunette is tied with thongs to a home gym. All the girls in the photographs look tough yet beautiful; self assured and mildly amused. According to the book it is Kern’s personalised treatment of his female subjects that transcends the pornographic.

I’m posed in front of the mirror wearing the white lace panties Miles bought me for my birthday. I stare at my reflection, sliding one hand down the front elastic, my other hand resting against a cocked hip. Sexy yet blasé like the girls in the Kern shoot.

Miles tells me I look great but a little stiff. “Baby, you need to relax, stop thinking about it and just, you know, let it happen. You’re worrying too much about the camera, forget about it, just do something that turns you on, act out a fantasy or something.”

In my fantasies Miles has me tied to the bed. My hands are tied with cords to my right leg, which is folded in under me. My left leg is free, bent at the knee and my eyes are blindfolded. He has a knife in his hand, I can’t see it, but I can feel the cold of the metal against my skin, the blade just nicking the surface. In my fantasies Miles pushes my face down on the bed, his left hand slapping against my raised ass while he forces his right hand up my cunt. The heel of a boot strikes. Now both heels. In my fantasies Miles throws me against the wall, biting at my neck, spitting and chewing on bruised nipples, yanks me by the hair, shoving cheeks and lips up against his glistening cock, making me suck, suck all the while, suck, pounding on my skull with both fists, suck, while he pulls at my hair and slaps my pink, teary face.

“You ready?” says Miles.
“Sure,” I say and I smile and cock my hips, because actually I’m nowhere near ready.

first published on litnet

April 7, 2007

albert hall dialogue

Filed under: stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 1:45 pm

Him: What’s Kaganof doing here?
Her: He’s down for the ARCO conference. He’s speaking. I really wanted to go but it’s only for students or something.
Him: Oh, okay, I just saw him at the bar.
Her: You mean here?
Him: Ja, at the bar.
Her: You saw Kaganof at the bar?
Him: I think it’s him.
Her: Well, he is in town, so yeah, that makes sense… Where’s he now?
Him: I don’t know. He was in front of me, at the bar… I mean if it was him…
Her: I want to see!
Him: There, isn’t that him?
Her: That’s Kaganof?
Him: I think so.
Her: Okay. Wow. I’ve only really seen old photos of him.
Him: Yeah, I definitely think it’s him.
Her: He’s not how I imagined… no, wait, he’s exactly how I imagined him.
Him: He looks very Joburg.
Her: Yeah. I should go introduce myself.
Him: Okay.
Her: But what the fuck will I say?
Him: Just, like, introduce yourself.
Her: Like what? “Hi, I’m me…” Fuck it I don’t know.
Him: Then don’t.
Her: He’s moving, come on….
Him: What?
Her: I want to see where he’s going.
Him: Why don’t you just introduce yourself?
Her: Ssshhh!
Him: Fuck.
Her: The chick he’s with is perfect.
Him: What do you mean?
Her: She’s, I dunno, perfect. Like from one of his books?
Him: Huh?
Her: Shit, he’s gone outside. What do you think they’re doing outside?
Him: I don’t know… fuck whatever… drugs probably….
Her: Do you think he does drugs?
Him: Oh for fucks sake!
Her: You’re right, I mean, of course he does drugs…
Him: Can we just go watch the band please?
Her: No, let’s wait for him to come back.
Him: Jesus, I don’t know why you don’t just introduce yourself?
Her: And say wha… shit, do you think he’ll recognise me?
Him: From where?
Her: I dunno, from photos. Like from Paul’s book launch. There was that one photo? But I’m looking kinda of spastic in that one so…
Him: I doubt he’ll recognise you.
Her: If he does we have to pretend.
Him: What?
Her: We have to pretend we didn’t know it was him. You know like “Hi, oh wow, really you’re Aryan?”
Him: Jesus fucking Christ. Would you just go and say hello already?
Her: And say fucking what exactly?
Him: Fuck, I don’t know, whatever people say…
Her: Yeah, well I don’t know what people say. What the fuck do people say?
Him: Like, I don’t know, fuck, whatever…
Her: Whatever what?
Him; It doesn’t matter what you say.
Her: So if it doesn’t matter why should I go speak to him?
Him: Fuck it, don’t go speak to him, I don’t care.
Her: Why don’t you go speak to him?
Him: I don’t want to speak to him!
Her: Then don’t.
Him: I’m not.
Her: Good! (long silence) Shit, quickly…
Him: What?
Her: He’s coming!!
Him: So?
Her: So hide! Quickly in case he recognises me!
Him: For fucks sake!!!!

March 19, 2007

one million and forty-four years (and sixty three days)

Filed under: nathaniel stern, johan thom, art, stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 11:01 am

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November 24, 2006

FRICTION FREE: net.art for the new economy

Filed under: stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 4:45 pm

Dror Eyal and Stacy Hardy

originally posted here

FRICTION FREE® is a live, interactive net.art project developed by Stacy Hardy and Dror Eyal. It is an online Stock Exchange that explores the notion of information as wealth, the Information Economy and calls into question the resulting digital divide.

FRICTION FREE® allows you to buy shares in the “theory stream” of your choice. On registering you will receive a free (albeit virtual) R1,000,000 to buy shares and dividends are paid out based on how well the streams are doing in the real world.

Stocks rise and fall according to the latest data on the number of pages returned by the Google Search Engine (www.google.com). Thus the more popular your field of study becomes amongst Netizens, the more times it’ll appear on Google and the more money you’ll make!
All theory streams available on the stock exchange are based on papers presented at the 8th annual South African qualitative methods conference “Something for Nothing: Subjectivity and society in the new economy” organised by the Critical Methods Society and to be held in Pretoria on 5 & 6 September 2002.(http://www.criticalmethods.org/p129.mv)
Current investment portfolios on offer include Knowledge Politics, Subjectivities & Identities, Critical Pedagogy, Predatory Culture and Modified Dualism.

The work uses Google Web APIs to generate the stock prices that are dynamic and fluctuating according to changing information on the web. It connects remotely to the Google Web APIs service via the Simple Object Access Protocol (SOAP), an XML-based mechanism for exchanging typed information, queries Google’s web search and accesses billions of web documents that are constantly refreshed.
Whether you’re anomalous monist, causal functionalist, behaviorist, linguistic psychologist, non-reductive physicalist, poststructuralist, cartesian interactionist dualist, henomenalist, dromologist, deconstructionist or a no-slow pomo purist, FRICTION FREE® has the investment portfolio to suit your risk and return profile.

+ Are you maximising your wealth in the information economy?
+ Are you getting the most out of belonging to the elite virtual class?
+ Have you invested in the critical discourse that suits your financial needs?

GET RICH FAST IN THE INFORMATION ECONOMY NOW

Ever since William Gibson strapped on his mirror shades and waxed lyrical - if somewhat woozily that “cyberspace” was a “consensual hallucination” net theory has descended into an endless elaboration of giddy utopian rhetoric: Cyberspace as a “smooth space” of interstitial nomadic movement and fluid subjectivity. Cyberspace as a mythic arena lucid with theoretical possibilities for economic empowerment.
Born-again McLuhanists envisioned an online community where people could realise control over their consumer choices. A shift from a culture of mass production and mass mediation to one of customised knowledge and demassified engagement, not to mention flexible production for a fast-changing market.
American dreamers like Esther Dyson et al almost creamed their pomo-panties over the possibilities: “In technology, economics, and the politics of nations, wealth - in the form of physical resources - has been losing value and significance. The powers of mind are everywhere ascendant over the brute force of things.”
Global villagists saw restrictive trade agreements crumble in favour of a vast informational exchange. Nicholas Negroponte ’s let-’em-eat-cake solution to poverty and homelessness was almost beautifully simple: give each homeless person a laptop computer!
Welcome to the information economy, where digital code supplants money as the ultimate medium of exchange. Where the proliferation of simulacra replaces the production of tangible commodities and where high capitalism finally meets a smashing - all be it virtual - demise at the hands of academics armed with kooky code cutters and virtual conferences.
In the information economy, economic inequality has miraculously vanished as the digital divide between wealth and poverty grows - so wide that the “third world” has slipped off the screen and out of our view. With so many bytes of information, no one ever starves in cyberspace.
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November 21, 2006

ways to die

Filed under: stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 5:08 pm

In the rats floating belly-up in the storm water drains and the cats we’d shoot with pellet guns and leave lying, heads bust open on the side of the road. And in the smells, the piss and the garbage and baking tar, gutters glutted with chicken bones - dogs at the bin bags again. It was in the red tide that washed in from the sea, bringing dead fish - rotting and stinking and attracting flies and gulls in a feeding frenzy with tangles of intestines hanging out their beaks. In the broken bottles on the street in the morning, the buses and the taxis exhaling filthy exhaust fumes and smog that turned the sunset brilliant orange then red. And the colours, so much brown, we used to joke: every shade of shit - red-shit and ochre-shit, grey-shit, off-green-shit. And in winter when it rained, in the grey drizzle, the endless haze punctuated only by the odd red or green - neon signs, traffic lights, dustbin fires. The sounds as well, especially at night, I’d lie awake and listen. The level never diminished, if some sound stopped for a while, others filled in the gaps - hooters, shouts, traffic, glass breaking, hollow bass thuds from the passing cars and the endless sirens, day and night, getting shriller as they approached, louder, then fading into a soft whine.

It came in the form of alcohol. Leaving bodies washed up on the pavement, twisted, bowels wrung like rags, squeezed dry. In the woman found lying outside the 7 Eleven. You didn’t need to be a doctor to know the autopsy results: stomach empty, liver enlarged, old bruises blooming on her neck and face. Or the guy who was disembowelled by a wire coat hanger. This happened on the street, right outside my block of flats. I saw the blood all over the pavement in the morning, they mopped it up but the stains remained, red patches that turned shit-brown then dark brown and then black forever.

And in the drugs. The downers, the way they make you warm all over first, then you start to buzz, a low hum from limb to limb like your body was a giant cosmic receiver. Or the uppers, the meth, speed. Or the crack that sucks you down like a slow descent into a cool pool, everything receding, until you want to hold your breath tight and never exhale again. And the heroin, like a blackened hand with claws deep inside your guts. Shoot too much and unconsciousness is instantaneous, breathing slows to about 2 to 3 respirations per minute, pupils pinpoint, blood pressure plummets, skin grows clammy and the blood supply to the brain dwindles, pupils yawn wide open as death wraps its fingers around you.

That was Nick. OD. DOA. I’d been out with him the night before, both too broke for anywhere decent we ended up in some shitty bar, a dark place with an old linoleum floor, no decoration, no music, some bar stools, some tables and chairs, nothing to do really except talk shit and get drunk. At some point we had an argument, something stupid about who had bought the last round and he left in a rage. In the morning I received the phone call. I picked up on the second ring. Somehow I knew. The doctors said it was an overdose but no one could say if it was accidental or not.

And then the drug-related deaths. When drugs don’t kill you but you die because of them just the same. Like Jamie. He was with his girlfriend Leah at the time. Driving home from a house club in town, stoned as usual, speeding and the car skidded out of control in the rain and crashed into the oncoming traffic. Leah was lucky, the door flew open and she fell out, she got concussion and a broken leg, but Jamie, he got his head torn open, bashed up so badly that it started haemorrhaging inside. Christ, when I think how many times it could have happened to me. Arriving home so fucked I couldn’t remember how I got there, someone parking, fumbling with the key in the lock. Or getting into the car with someone tripping off their face. Or getting fucked and then just driving for the hell of it. Like that time Kelly was so goofed and speeding, 180 km or something down a dark road in the middle of the night. I don’t even remember where we were going, just the car swerving from side to side. We must have been fighting again because I was screaming at her and she was crying and giving it back, pushing her foot down flat as we swerved right, left and then at some point I grabbed her hand and twisted it back, telling her to stop the fucking car and let me out. And then she did. She slammed on breaks. I went flying forward and hit my head on the dash board and she was wedged right up against the steering wheel as the car slid through the dirt, eventually skidding to a stop just before the barrier dividing the road from the cliff and then the ocean. We could have both died then.

Or suicide from drug-induced psychosis or depression. Like Kevin from our block of flats who did too much acid and ended up in some psychiatric ward. I never went to visit him but Kelly did. She said he seemed tired and uneasy, he had difficulty sleeping, the moment he shut his eyes he would hear fragments of conversations, when he laughed it felt like it was only with half his face, while the other half remained sinister and sulking, his two cerebral hemispheres were parting ways, he could feel the cleft, a wedge through his skull. Finally the voices were too much and he flung himself out a window. He was in the hospital for a year after that. It bankrupted his parents, then his Dad disappeared with the car one night, didn’t come back. A week later his mom gave the authorisation for the plug to be pulled.

Or like Michael. He found his father’s gun one night, him and Lester, high and fucked on coke and vodka. No one knows exactly what happened. According to Lester it was Michael’s idea. “Russian Roulette”, he said, then pointed the pistol at his temple, pulled the trigger. Later Lester told us how he heard it first, like a car backfiring at close range. This was ages ago but I still remember Lester’s face as he spoke: it went white, eyes glazed over as if he was reliving the whole thing, moment by moment, the bullet hitting Michael’s eye, then his head exploding, a fat column of red, hot red that gushed down his face and onto the floor. A year later it was Nick. He hung himself off his shower rail with a belt. Apparently he’d been up all night chasing the dragon then in the morning he tried three times. One: a failed overdose that he threw up in the toilet; two: failed hanging from the light-fitting in the passage; three: success on the shower rail. He was Susan’s boyfriend and I didn’t know him that well but it was a shock just the same. He always seemed so very quiet. Then a few days later another guy we knew, Sean, also committed suicide. It was all very confusing. I heard it through Kareena. Apparently through some means involving a plastic bag. This was just after Nick’s funeral. I remember when Kareena told me I was stunned.
“I need a drink.”
“Pour me one too.”
Somehow found two clean glasses in her kitchen and we sat next to each other on the couch in her dirty, tiny flat drinking Jack Daniels. Later I fucked her. I don’t know why. I wasn’t attracted to her. It just sort of happened. I was thinking how shit she must be feeling about Sean and how I should say something to cheer her up but that wasn’t what was happening, instead I was kissing her neck and her chest, fumbling with the buttons on her jeans. Her legs were bare and she had white underwear on, off-white actually, with elastics on the legs that squeezed around her thighs. She looked nervous and I kept telling her that she looked really hot and the walls were covered with damp from the rain and the humidity and the carpet we were rolling around on was the colour of rust-shit and my fingers were inside her and her tongue was in my ear. Then she changed position, swivelled her ass around so she was grinding down into me and our skin was hot and sweating. We were grinding pressed together like that hard and harder and she was riding me and her tits were bouncing up and down. I was trying to focus on her tits to stop myself thinking about Sean with a plastic bag over his head or Kelly at home waiting for me probably getting more and more stoned but my dick was getting limp. I pushed it up into her quick but it crumpled back on me but even that was okay because Kareena was so wet, literally dripping and bouncing around on top of me and feeling that made me hard again and as I got harder she moved faster, then one final grind and her juice slid down my leg and I pulled out and came on her tits. In that moment I saw her face, it was all twisted with pleasure but I could see the pain in her eyes, like her heart was breaking, literally dissolving into a million tiny drops and slipping down her chest. And that was a kind of death too.

And Xavier who tried to give up buttons three times and then the last time, after three months clean, his lungs collapsed. An asthma attack that caused the rupture of air sacs leading to respiratory failure then death. His brother said afterwards that by the time they got him to the hospital his whole chest was lop-sided, sunken in on itself like his ribcage had been swallowed up. And Anton. With him we were all expecting it. He owed his Nigga something like thirty thousand and was on the run. When I saw him again half his face was covered in bandages where they had beat it in and the hospital had shaved off all his hair for the stitches so you could see a deep, white-welted scar commemorating some earlier fight that ran like a crack across his skull. With him it was really only a matter of time.

And then Paul. We had been best friends all through high school. We had lived just down the road from each other in identical squat, shit-brown houses with tiny yards tied together by a maze of asbestos fences and concrete driveways with weeds growing between them. He was smarter than the rest of us. While we were out in the streets or next to the railroad tracks catching rats, sentencing them to death, and executing them, he was at home lying on his bed reading. He was the only one that got out in the end. He went to some fancy university overseas. At first we emailed. Then we lost contact. You know how it goes, I was too busy failing out of university and fucking Kelly and getting stoned. The next time I saw him was when he came home to die. AIDS related complications. He never said how he contracted it, my guess was unprotected sex or sharing needles, either way it was fucking stupid, too fucking stupid for Paul.

Kelly couldn’t understand why I was so angry, “Why are you saying that? Just because he has AIDS doesn’t mean he has to die. They have drugs these days.”
“Yes and half the time the drugs kill you before the disease does.”
“Everyone has to die.”

Towards the end he got really weak, chronic diarrhoea, he couldn’t even swallow water anymore because it just shot straight out. The last time I went to see him he looked very pale and fucked up. He was in one of the single dorms they moved people to when their condition became chronic, a tiny cube with a big window that looked out on the hospital grounds and then the city beyond. There was a tube going up into his nose and another one in his arm. I wanted to say something but I knew if I tried I’d choke and anyway, there was really nothing left to say. It’ll be okay? I’ll miss you? It all falls so pathetically short that it’s better to just keep your mouth shut. Before I left I gave him a shaky smile. He tried to smile back but he couldn’t because every time he moved his mouth his lips cracked. That was the dehydration. The doctors explained: secretions decreased, crying is no use, you try but no tears come out, your saliva is so thick it sticks between your teeth and gums up your tongue. It is difficult to speak. The mucous membranes of the mouth and lips crack as they dry out. As it progressively gets worse, blood pressure will drop, heart rate will pick up, blood will get thicker. In the end he was so severely dehydrated that he died of a stroke because his blood got so thick that it couldn’t move through his veins.

After his funeral I walked to the hospital where he had been staying. It was a Sunday. He had been dead 48 hours. I stood on the pavement and looked up at the building. It was this massive shit-red brick building set in a large, mostly grass-less lot surrounded by a wire fence. I blinked against the sun. For some reason I wanted to find the window of the room he had been in before he died. But somehow it seemed like there were too few windows, especially on upper floors, only tall and narrow openings, like squinting eyes; and lower down, small squares that were crudely barred up.

this story was first published by sweet magazine

November 20, 2006

the dark side of the moon

Filed under: stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 6:00 pm

The first time you feel the thing is on Saturday night. You’re in traffic so you lift your ass out the driver’s seat and use one hand to scratch. You claw at the outside of your jeans, clench your teeth, gripping the steering wheel with the other hand and looking ahead at the dimly lit street. At the next red robot you unbutton and unzip your jeans, you suck in your stomach and stick your hand down your pants. You scratch at your underpants. You rearrange your balls. You rezip, putting your foot flat as you accelerate onto the highway. The itch doesn’t go away, it becomes an uncomfortable pricking sensation, then, what feels like something crawling down the side of your penis and onto your scrotum.

You reach your house and park your car. You unlock the door and let yourself in. You strip off all your clothes, tossing them over your shoulder, onto your arm as you climb the stairs to the bathroom. When you reach the bathroom, two fluid motions as you switch on the light and you throw your clothes on the floor. You turn on the shower and let the water run until it’s piping hot. You stand under the steaming spray. Your soap is Protex anti-bacterial. You take extra care scrubbing the inside of your thighs, your ass, the crack, up towards your balls. You lather your penis into a foaming white sock.

The next time you feel it is on Monday. You’re in the hardware store shopping for fittings to redo your bathroom, standing in the pluming aisle, surveying epoxy putty and plumbing acid brushes. Further down a couple are looking at copper fittings. At first the itch is concentrated around your crack, then it starts to spread out, it tickles down your right ass cheek. You shift your weight from one foot to the other. You pull on your jeans. You turn so your back is against the shelf with the epoxy putty. You move up and down as if you’re trying to get a better look at the taps tails and check valves on the opposite shelves. You try and scratch against the metal edge but it’s cool and rounded, too smooth to offer any real relief.

You somehow make it out the shop and into the parking lot. When you get into the driver’s seat it feels as though your buttocks are on fire. Your balls feel raw. You push down your pants and scratch. You tear at your skin. You use your fingernails and scratch hard. Your hands are shaking as you start the car.

At home you lie on your bathroom floor, contorting your body into ridiculous positions to get a better look. You peer over your shoulder; you clench your head between your thighs. You decide the itch is probably psychosomatic. You lie in bed and try to remember everything you know about pubic lice but all that comes to mind from primary school biology is the life cycle of the tapeworm. You close your eyes and listen to the house settling. You take deep breaths. Your bed smells like tea-tree and chlorine from the anti-bacterial soap you use in the shower.

You try RID Maximum Strength Mousse Hair Formula for Lice, which you get from the Link pharmacy down the road. The pharmacist’s assistant wears a white coat and glasses. Her face is completely blank while you stammer through your “problem”. She disappears behind the counter and comes back with a small bottle. At home you apply the easy non-drip, pleasant scent formula according to the instructions in the pack. You carefully brush it through your pubic hair using the patented egg removal comb. You wait a day, but the itch comes back.

It comes and goes at irregular intervals, mostly at night. You wake yourself up scratching. The blankets are knotted. You’re sweating and hot. You feel a sensation as if something is crawling: it runs up and down your crack, onto your scrotum, around the base of your dick then back, a burrowing sensation in your asshole then the itch disappears.

You decide the thing is probably living in your asshole, exiting on occasional nocturnal sojourns. You try to enema it out, starting with Magic Bullet Laxative Suppositories (usually work in 15 minutes to one hour). Afterwards you experience abdominal discomfort, rectal burning, mild cramps, and then the itching returns. You try dipping your ass into warm wash basins, donning latex gloves, probing your asshole with your right index finger. You attempt a Sunmark fountain syringe enema, complete with hang-up hook, kink-resistant, durable, flee-flow tubing and extra-smooth pipes for easy cleaning. You search blindly with the tube’s rounded greased end for an insertion point in your sphincter. Once it’s inserted, you squeezed hard, filling yourself with hot soapy liquid.

That night you wake up scratching again. The room is dark except for the light from the passage seeping through the crack of your open door. You try and picture the thing. Images that come to mind: a tiny Jeff Goldblum in the final transformation scenes of David Cronenberg’s The Fly; an antlion, like the ones you used to dig up in dry riverbeds as a kid; the microscopic images of the AIDS virus attacking immune cells that your saw in you office workshop on AIDS in the workplace. You climb out of bed and stumble downstairs. Your modem sings, connects. You search google, then head over to the cyberdoc on health24.co.za. You log in as, “Bummer”. You write:

“I recently had sex with a rather unsavoury lady… and yes, we did use a condom. Shortly afterwards I felt something crawling down the side of my penis and scrotum. This creature, whatever it is, has apparently taken up residence inside my rectum. I have no unpleasant symptoms or pain etc. except occasionally the little bugger will crawl out and around my ass. I have tried on these occasions to grab it with a well-aimed fingernail but it has proved to be very illusive indeed! I am most eager to have the little bugger evicted ASAP as I am quite sure that anyone that lives in a place like that can only be up to no good whatsoever! Has anybody ever heard of anything like this before and if so what can be done about it?”

this story was first published by sweet magazine

October 18, 2006

He wants me to say/sometimes

Filed under: stacy hardy — ABRAXAS @ 9:49 pm

Stacy Hardy
2006-10-18

I follow his eyes. I nod my head. I smile. I raise my hand toward my chin. A series of small gestures repeated over the hour. His next question follows on from his last question. He says, “Why do you always write about sex?”

I know what he wants me to say. I can see what he’s gunning for – his intent. The way he lays down his sentences, accentuates certain words. The interview is for a piece he’s doing on women’s literature in the new South Africa. A post-apartheid chick-lit clit crit. I know he wants me to say how in our post-1994 landscape the personal is political. How it’s all about a retrieval of value around once largely tabooed notions of subjectivity, desire and personal history. You know, the importance of introducing more accurate and varied images of female experience into the cultural pool, blah blah blah. How sex is life. Sex is death. Sex is a way of spreading social dis-ease. A violence. A struggle. The struggle. A break in linearity, a cut or a tear. An entry point. A way of getting between the barriers, the thin membranes that divide us all, the epidermis, the veins, blood surging inside veins and ears as if to say forget words all together. How sex is a weapon, an attack on power, a rupture that blows apart lucidity, domination, and explodes his stupid question and his dumb need to neutralise me and pin me down and to control me and to be on top.

I don’t say that. Instead I bite down hard on my tongue and I say, “Well, sex sells, doesn’t it?” I look away. I stare into my coffee. I swirl it in the cup. 

*
 
 

Sometimes  

Can you tell that I agreed to participate in this conference only because I saw that cool emerging writers like Gabeba Baderoon and Diane Awerbuck are participating and I want to be “emerging” and “cool” too? That I write this stuff so that I can say I’m doing my bit, contributing to our culture?

Post-apartheid: we are all so eager to please, so easy to please; so thrilled to be adding our voices to the multifaceted chorus reflecting our one rainbow nation-hood; so ready to comment via our own dilemmas and identifications as writers; so enchanted by our new-found multicultural experience, its celebration of unity in diversity, new friends made then forgotten.

“Hi, my name is Stacy. I have so many stories to tell about growing up white and privileged and fucked up. About how I received my education in a sunny class-room, chalk squeaking out letters on the board, and about how I furthered it at a neo-liberal institution where the cream-coloured colonial buildings stood pristinely apart …”

“Thanks Stacy! Based on your experiences, can you tell us how seriously women writers are taken in this country? How seriously they take themselves?”

Seriously? I can tell you that I’ve never taken anything seriously in my whole life. That I rush from bar to bar drinking myself into oblivion. Frenzied dancing to music I don’t really like, repetitive beats and chanted lyrics barking out at me in a language I don’t even understand. Indeterminable periods of time spent in the bathroom staring at my unfamiliar image. Blonde hair and blue eyes surrounded by thin lines, a sign of too much time spent in the sun. Ruthless, bored, half-starved. Walking back home alone through the almost deserted streets, projecting accumulated lack on unsuspecting bodies spilling out of late-night bars while the call to prayer dilates across the city enveloping roofs and satellite dishes in a pre-recorded sunrise drone.

I can tell you that I steal words because I don’t have an original thought in my head. Or that I write about sex because I’m not getting any. Endless afternoons spent scrunched up on an old couch in some dealer’s flat in Sea Point listening to this Camps Bay prick tell me his life sob-story while he pushes R300 wads of baby powder up his nose. Me, hanging off his every word, swallowing it all down between gulps of beer, then regurgitating it back on the page in a plagiarised memoir that I sell to other disenfranchised privileged white fucks raised on channels all tuned to real-life stories 24 hours a day, paying for it, watching it, reading it, sucking it down.

Is this what you’re asking me? About form and structure? Or about my life? Does my life matter? Does it have meaning? I don’t know. That’s why I write. My education taught me that words produce meaning. Sentences lead to something – a narrative or a description or a plot. For some reason that doesn’t seem to hold anymore. I write and I write but nothing happens. There is no movement or change or transformation. Instead, words spill out, leaving me in too many places at once, mesmerised by the untold and untellable pasts, multiple futures that never take place, distances that never get closer, endless returnings – a moment that changes into another moment only to resemble itself again.

Sometimes I stop for long enough to read something back and I’m shocked by its absolute banality. My eyes swim in their little sockets and I want to evaporate myself. I want write myself out of this space, this blank generation post-apartheid middle-class fucked-up neo-liberalist apathy where everything and everyone and every word is reflected in every other thing and one and word. I want to explode the page, the frame, change the font size, enjamb the kerning between the letters and words so that all the black of the page is compressed into a big fat bruise like someone got smacked. I want to …

Sometimes.

But it’s so easy. This large empty silence of white. So comfortable. The words come so quickly, so smoothly, without demanding much. As long as I keep my hand moving from left to right. The next word and the next word. And anyway, I’m already late for the deadline. And anyway, they’re paying only like 35 cents a word to do this thing.

And I’m at my desk. The windows are all open. It is the hottest summer ever and I have a deep tan. I am brown all over, except for my hands. My hands give me away. They are small and creased and terribly white. They repeat themselves endlessly.

this article was first published on the litnet site